Thank you for having this forum. What a blessing to have a group of people want to read your TMI and help you through. I made a silly username to keep myself unaffiliated with my usual online presence (hopefully you guys understand that desire) and a play on the term anal fissure.
As a nickname...? Uh.. we can use one of my other nicknames, Mir.
I am a woman of 21 years and a couple months ago i think something down stairs tore. Sometime soon after I saw pink on my TP and it generally has been reddish ever since. A few days ago it bled a lot more than usual after a BM that felt as painful as usual. I saw blood in the water first and I thought, "shit, my menstrual cycle started way off schedule!" that's how much, but no, it was my poor, poor bum.
basically a BM feels like I am passing a large piece of glass. And after time passes and it feels like it has healed a bit, I will be having another BM, being patient and letting it take its time (which almost feels worse?) it will feel all fine and dandy until I feel that sucker burst back open! It's literal torture.
this morning the pain was different. I didn't feel that "burst" moment but my bowel was too thick one point not to push, and when I did so it was just a horrible stretching feeling. So I'm hoping that means progress? Not getting my hopes up though.
what I would love help with is the torturous itching. Let me tell you something about me: I already have sensitive skin (I have this condition called dermatographia) and how this plays a part is that when I even so lightly scratch or put pressure on my skin, it becomes an itch fest. Anywhere on my body. Anywhere. And so with the itch associated with the fissure, there is no way to 'relieve' it without entering hell. What can I do? I've read coconut oil helps so I've bought some organic and have tried it once or twice. Should I continue? What else should I do?
i didn't know what I was getting into. I thought it would just heal, like the body does. After reading people here take months to years to possibly never to heal, to resorting to surgery, to having permanent ramifications, I'm so disenchanted. I can't afford doctors and surgery right now. I can pretty much get myself to an urgent care or the planned parenthood health clinic when I need something (uti usually) and my state welfare type insurance pays for it. can they do anything to help me? If so, how and what? Should I go? Do they have to inspect my ass? Because if so I'm not going. Lol