So I am just having a horrid day and needed to have a little rant...I have had this AF for nearly one whole year and it has definitely improved to the point where 90% of the time all is well and even when there is a little set back, it does not involve blood and usually heals really quickly. However, I am still sooooo anxious about it and feel like it will never ever really go away and that I am one dodgy poo away from disaster!!
I keep trying to rationalise that it has gotten so much better over time and that even 2 months ago there were more issues than there are now so that must be encouraging and I know that with this minimal amount of pain, I would not be a good candidate for LIS. I also know that the more I fixate on it the worse it feels etc... but I am just obsessed at the moment. My other half has had a look and says that it looks basically OK but almost as if it has healed slightly overlapping and when he pulls it, there is little white bit inside that I have assumed is some kind of scar but that the surrounding skin and everywhere looks normal skin colour so there is no angry open wound anywhere but I just don't know why it won't fully heal.
Does it just take ages or do they sometimes never really heal but rather become minor nuisances? I saw a CRS in May last year when it was really painful and he seemed to think it was 75% healed so if it hurts a million times less than then, maybe it is pretty much healed but just fragile.
I don't want to risk surgery but I am literally so scared of every little twinge or pain or anything in that area.
Sorry for the moan, I am just not feeling it today!!!