to the forum. Glad you found us too, even though this is not the place you would really choose to be...
And so sorry you're in such pain when you should be enjoying your new baby.
I can only suggest a few things:
Don't put the nitro inside. It can quite easily get into the blood stream from being applied to the outside of your bum, without subjecting yourself to extra pain.
Do you have a Sitz Bath that fits on the toilet bowl? Much the best. Also, if it helps, poop in the water, but empty straight away. If you are in the US, the best Sitz bath is Rite Aid's one.
Don't overdo the fiber. Only about 25g a day. And drink lots of water, especially as you're breast feeding.
Miralax is very good, better than Colace. Lots of posts on here about that. Use the search between FAQ and Portal below the birdie pic to search. Best one.
It takes about six to eight weeks for the nitro to work, so keep at it. Just OUTSIDE though. Don't know why these docs say put it inside so you can go through even more pain.
Feel free to come and rant!! We know
exactly how you feel.