I am so sad I found the forum just now, because I would have spent more time reading in here to inform myself.

English is not my first language.

I was diagnosed with chronic anal fissure and have two sentinel skin tags

Tomorrow I am having my surgery.

I am trying to not think about the surgery but think of this as the start of my new life, where I don't obssess over toilets, or avoid traveling since I am afraid I will not have a good chance to use one when I need it and then wash myself.

I am tired of being in pain, of carrying a waterbottle with me everywhere so I would always have a chance to wash myself after BM, since the skintags absolutely demand it.

I am tired of feeling unsexy (skintags blergh) and avoiding dating because of them.

Luckily I live in the City where whe probably have the best University hospital in the my country, and the doctor who diagnosed me is one of the best in the coutry. I hope she operates on me, but since it is an University hospital it might be a student of hers O.o;;.

I am scared but trying to think positive, since I am tired of the current situation. It just has to get better. I can't imagine this being the rest of my life. What I am most scared of are the side effects. Since I have skin tags I am worrying over incontinence. I hope I recover fast and shitting my pants will not be my future. I am too young for that be my future (In my early thirties).

So everyone wish me luck. Tomorrow I'll learn what they will do to me, and I am planning to keep a journal about my experience and recovery.

Good luck, ChaosTree. The surgery is nothing to be scared about, my op took barely 5 minutes!

As you say, think positive, I'm learning in my first week that is vital, and tomorrow really is the start of the rest of your life...

Hey ChaosTree how did your surgery go? Hope you are beginning to feel a little better. Keep us updated.

ChaoTree,

Hope you're doing well today after surgery! I'm having surgery tomorrow and am so panicked. I can't stop thinking about it. While mine is not as involved as your case, know that you're not alone. We'll be in this together.