As a teenager i used to finger my ass for pleasure. I made it a habit to do so whenever i went to the toilet so as to stimulate passage of feces completely and feel absolutely clean inside. There were instances where I noticed blood a couple of times but never took it seriously so as to stop my habit completely. It was two years ago I noticed two skin tags emerging out which even though were painless made me worry. I went to see a doctor who performed lateral internal sphincterotomy. It was a horrible experience recovering from the operation. After a long time past, post operation there were instances when fissure appeared again and blood came sometime either while trying to have anal sex and sometime when having a hard stool. It gets me really worried and stressed every time thinking about the operation. I apply cream later as I never want my fissures to turn chronic. I do not know the ones I have right now are acute or chronic. Is there a way to self examine for chronic fissures if any skin tags are absent?
Two days back i met a guy online and i was kinda drunk to think rationally and we ended up having anal sex. We used a condom but there was no lube. It irritated in the beginning because of that. Later at home when i went to to poop I had a bad burning sensation. Blood also cam out the following day/ I looked up and bought an ointment (Licodaine + Nifedipine) which I plan on applying twice daily for three weeks as per instructions. I really hope it helps me. I feel i should give up anal sex which would mean compromising with my sex life. I still dont feel very confident about it. Would love to hear from someone with a similar experience.