Hello, I came across site and decided to join. I am 52 and had this issue most of my life. I only discovered that it actually had a name a couple years ago googling things and pieced it together that I have some sort of pelvic floor or other disorder. Long story short I had a tough time going number 2 from early age. I would hold it I would strain etc. I know my mother asked the Dr why I screamed on potty and he just said he needs to grow up. That was 1968 or so I guess it wasnt a thing back then. I do recall having tests done drinking awful liquid and getting xrays but I was so little I barely remember what ever was said.
Years went by and I just figured I had really tight muscles and it was mental. I do think it is part mental but that is another story.
BTW I am sort of self diagnosed because when I mentioned to my Dr they sort of dismissed me, mainly because I dont do well taking pills they want me to for blood sugar, BP and cholesterol. I have a real tension problem I know and it manifests a lot in my bowel movements. I eat a healthy diet, never constipated, My Dr is more concerned with my labs than what I deal with every hour of every day when I go the bathroom, anticipate the bathroom, and on and on. I am not faulting the Dr I know I am a pain as a patient
I do drink too much I admit, but mainly my problem has always been relaxing enough to fully have a BM, I always stop in middle and it takes 3 attempts and then it is never complete unless I help with a homemade enema. I dont do that often so I end up with a constant sore anus slathered in diaper rash ointment or calmoseptine.
Sometimes it is worse and is a full on fissure. I am so used it it now when I am not in pain it seems strange.
Anyway I have decided to check this forum out and start dealing with it more proactively. I am overdue for a colonoscopy but I keep canceling because I never heal. I am scared I have had it so long that it will turn out to be something way worse.
This was sort of rambling and compressed but anyway I am glad you are here I dont feel so alone and embarrassed. This is not really something I have talked about. My wife sort of understands but she thinks I am crazy anyway.
I am going to read the posts here and learn what I can, Maybe someday I can help someone eles.
Thanks