Awwwweee buddy XXXXXXXX :sprinkleheart: :sprinkleheart: !!!!!!
It does not look good my "Tubby" - I will definitely need him to fix that non healing gap and I have a feeling it will be next friday since it is the day he does surgeries . But, I have to do what I have to do - maybe Monday will be good day for me too :roll: - maybe some angel will feel pity for me - only miracle now can make it all well .
Thank you so much for huggies - means a lot friend :heart7: !!! I am sending you a hundred right back :plane:

Ohhh Fissy
Mr laser guy will be judging his own work that’s for sure ! if you need a stitch or two then fine as you say - you have to do what you have to do…
Just remember you liked this guy for a reason….. Its not over yet !!
I will be praying for you Fissy, Hoping you return tomorrow with some positive news

Dear Fissy,
you poor thing having to go through all this again tomorrow i cant believe the silly man didnt stitch it at the time, now you have to go through more trauma with getting it stitched now. Its not fair, these incompetent doctors make me so angry .

Good luck with your appointment, i hope he can put everything right for you.

Fissy -
How are you? Good I hope!!!
Are you getting your cut resutured? From what I know, it is not good to suture old wounds. When someone comes into the ER with an external laceration, docotrs only have a 8-12 hour window where they can fix it, after, that bacteria forms and they can not sew the wound. People used to come in the ER all the time with 1 or 2 day old wounds and there was nothing we could do for them, but help with pain meds and clean the area. Now, your cut maybe different considering this is surgery and an internal wound. I am also positive the doctor would not do anything that was unsafe for you. Just giving you my 2 cents! I am sure you will be fine.
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Thanks my sweethearts :heart7: :heart7: :heart7: for all the understanding and well wishing, hugs and sent love :redlove:!
I still hope he will find a solution for me and that there will be a fairy-tale happy ending to all of my pain one day. What I hold against him the most is that he did not have balls to cut my sphincter sufficiently and that he did not put suture on that tag since it was a BIG, thick tag, not a regular skin
flap . He should have known that tag like that has different structure and needs different approach!!!!
Jen - buddy, thanks for the info The thing is that my wound there is COMPLETELY healed - but separately !!! It is like cleft palate - if it can help you imagine. Both edges of the tag sealed nicely and COMPLETELY and became 2 separate tiny tiny tags with division in between that goes all the way to the muscle. You can clearly see white outer anal sphincter in between. Now , he will need to CUT open those edges to refresh the wound - make a new wound and than suture it so it can grow together - again, same as cleft palate surgery. Now - that is not the only problem. The "divided" tag was just perfect starting point for a new fissure to open - like when you start dividing and orange - you make initial divide with your fingers on the top and than just pull it apart. That is what happened on that place - first BM caused "cleft" to just continue inside and voila . I swear - I would perform my own surgery better squatting above that mirror - but now what is done is done - I will travel to the end of this world to find a surgeon who will fix this if this one does not know how
Sorry for such a long "rumble" - I am just fed up with everything this morning - my first BM always makes me the most upset since it proves every morning that fissure is there and that my plight is far from being over !!!
LOVE TO ALL

I really hope and pray that tomorrow we all find healing and comfort. I want to believe that God can bring wholeness to us and he can work all things out for our good. I know that you are going to get through this Fissy. I have no understanding of why you should have such a terrible surgical experience and what the f*** he did! (is that bad to talk about God and use the F word in the same post?)

But I tell myself I don't know the big picture and perhaps this has to happen for the next thing to happen that will get me out of this situation. I am holding you all close in my heart and love you like sisters.

Love you too my sweet Sis - I know that you think and feel all the
same what I do , same questions , same trails same periods of silence or turmoil inside. :arwen:

Lecia Fiss

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:( :( :( oh my God Fiss, that sounds absolutely horrific. Is he allowed to get away with doing this to you? What will you have to have done about it?

I'm so so upset for you, I cant believe in our modern world that they can mess up with an operation like this.

And Lecia, i dont think its wrong to say the f word and God in a situation like this - I'm sure even God would say it to your surgeons too!

I'll be praying for both of you to find the answers that you so need and deserve tomorrow. Best of luck and lots of love XXXX
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