I don't even try to talk to my friends - they are totally oblivious and make comments that hurt. I heard everything from : " Just learn to live with it", "Don't dwell in self pity", "My back hurts but I take Alive and just ride my bike anyway", and once one of the girls asked me how am I doing and I was telling her when another passed by and overheard and said :" OH NOOOOOO, you are still talking about that episode"??? :( And I spent YEARS listening to her problems of all kinds, from miscarriages,to fibroids, to clogged glands by her private parts, vertigo, acid reflux, allergies, financial troubles, found her husband a job TWICE, helped her stay married and on and on and on

. It hurt so much , I was speechless . The other girl was taken aback too and said : " I asked her"!
Anyways....
My Mom understands completely and always almost cries because she can not travel and wants to be with me and help, so for her sake I try to make it sound better than it is. My Sis is great spiritual help. Kids I try to spare as much as I can, try to cry only when they are not around. My husband is my "rock" - he is always there to listen, comfort, "look" and give hope but lately I try to take that burden off him - it is enough that I am stressed out - I hate to see his eyes sad and worry furrowing his brows :( .
So, yeah - this is my safe place , my main place of sharing and caring and
endless understanding

I don't know what I would do without you all :roll: !!!!
