Jen sweetness - I just spent 30 min writing you and all disappeared before I could post it - I will be back soon when I calm my nerves and remember all I wrote - I HATE COMPUTERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh no Fissy! I hate it when that happens to me. Thats ok - take your time - I am not going anywhere darling!

Hey Jen-Jen - here I am Maybe it happened for a reason LOL - I spent whole afternoon doing some research about keratosis and dermatitis and I got even better idea of what might help . I will send you a PM
I also tried to comfort you about your "profession choice" - your apprehension only shows how up to detail you will be and how devoted care-taker you are !!!! We allll make mistakes and they are inevitable but human error is so different from negligence , there is no comparison. If you do all that is in your power to help and than fail - you should than be free of any guilt - human body is not a machine and how it will react and IF it will react to medical procedure is completely out of your power , dear Jen. I know that I would never blame nurse or a doctor for anything that goes wrong if that person was there for me 100 % and took time and all resources, and to the contrary - I still have hard feelings toward CRS who did my first LIS although his only mistake was that he cut me too little - I still feel emotionally raped by his comments and complete disregard to my pain and concerns post op. I know that your biggest fear is to make an obvious mistake - like giving 200 cc of med instead of 20 and put person in shock and such, I completely can understand your anxiety - I would be the same way -but chances of that are one in a million and you will be helping thousands and thousands of patients in so many ways before the chance of that ever happening. But, if it still makes you uneasy- than you can choose medical field where mistakes are very unlikely to be caused by you or have any lasting or fatal consequences - like being a nurse in a surgery ward (one that prepares instruments , hands them to the surgeon and than collects them back), or you can work in rehabilitation centers and help patients regain mobility , or work in obstetrics ward and take care of newborns ( I am sure you will not drop a baby on the head lol xoxo ) .
All in all, dear buddy, you chose the great profession - you will do what you enjoy doing and you will do it well . Also, you will never be out of job and you can also one day open your own clinic for extended care or nursing home and doctors can not do that - he he heeee

Good comments, Fiss. I agree, Jen, you will make a GREAT nurse. Maybe having a fissure is/was a good thing for some of us as it really taught us about suffering and how we might alleviate it for others. I think that is one reason I am so excited about getting involved with the ARC.

Thanks Cheryl & Fissy!!!! I love all you guys!
Yes - Your right - I am not scared of negligence because I would never do that. I am afraid of making a med error - I am only human and we all make errors. I hope this feeling will get better with time - it causes me such anxiety just thinking about making a mistake!
You guys are so wonderful - your like my little nursing school cheerleaders!

Well, Jen, we have selfish interests in your chosen occupation as you will be the new med expert here after you are finally done.