Hey everyone, I am so happy I found this site and I have been reading all the stories here. This is my story. In September of 08 I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I have NEVER in my life had any problems with my BMs or constipation. When I was about 6 weeks preg, my BMs became more hard and then the pain started. About a month later I started to notice blood on the TP and streaking my stools. I saw my OBGYN and she took a quick glance and said I was getting a tiny hemorrhoid. Well a month passed and the pain was getting worse, so I decided to see my family doctor. He used an anascope? I believe....worst pain in my life! Im sorry but that was worse than labor pains. He said I had a small tear and it was called an anal fissure. He put me on a high fiber diet and said it would clear up on its own, well it didnt!
So by the time I was seven months pregnant it was so painful to poo and there was so much blood everytime. Then after my BMs I found feel throbbing and pain for hours. I was so scared to poo and would have to grip on to something everytime I would go to the bathroom. My OBGYN decided to give me proctofoam and Lidocane. I used that for five days along with eating bran buds twice a day and finally I felt better! I then noticed a small flesh colored lump outside my anus a month later and they said it was a hemmorhoid caused by the pressure of my uterus. Well that caused little pain compared to the immense pain the fissure had previously caused so I didnt even care.
I had my son VIA C-section May 21st and then the pain and bleeding came back about 2 months later. I tried the proctofoam again, didnt work. High fiber diet, stool softeners, lidocane no relief blood every BM and feeling like my but hole is ripping open each time (sorry to be so graphic). I also still have the flesh colored lump (hemorrhoid) on the outside. It has now been 17 months since I was first diagnosed. I am a college student and unfortunately have NO health insurance. I am obsessed with google and am now worried. What if I was missed diagnosed? Can that happen? I am so afraid I have anal cancer. I am panicking because my mother died from cancer and I dont want my son to be without himm mommy. I love him so much and I do not know if im being overly paranoid or if it is something more serious. My symptoms now are still the tearing feeling with each BM, the lump on the outside (what they said was the hemorrhoid) and blood with each BM unless im fortunate enough to get the runs. I know I must sound crazy but since I cannot afford to see a doc right now I was hoping to maybe to get some advice here. Do they last this long and what about the lump? Thanks in advance everyone