I didn't intro myself in the other thread because I knew I was coming here directly. I had the surgery. Since we are all unique, I will neither recommend nor dissuade any one from choosing this option but here's my story.
Suffered off and on with fissure for over a decade. The pain, intense itching, burning, unnatural fear of white porcelain. And I would get low grade fevers and malaise for the initial day. My diet was very hit and miss so I know I did not help the situation.
After surgery, I was in manageable pain the first day. I had follow up the next day and things were painful but that was expected. Then I couldn't have a bowel movement and it all went downhill. I was told to use an enema, which I did, and it worked but it felt like I passed a tennis ball. The fissure pain was not bad but the pain from the surgery site was off the charts. From that point on I was in horrific pain day and night. Had my pain pill changed to something stronger. At 11 days out I went back to the doctor who did not believe I was in horrible pain and had a rather stank attitude towards me. At that point, I had an uncontrollable emotional outburst, complete with crying and curse words, which is something that has NEVER happened before. He admitted me to the hospital at that point to examine me under general anesthesia. I spent the next eight hours waiting for the procedure in the most awful pain that the fentynol they gave me barely touched.
Well, no infection was found. But the pain was still there. And great...the surgical incision had to be opened and restitched. They gave me fentynol/morphine drip with the self-administered pump. After discharge the following day, toradol and percocet controlled the pain adequately but it still hurt. I thought things were looking up when seven days after discharge I was off the narcotics and could stand straight up. Ten days from discharge, I ventured out and felt more or less "normal"...after the morning bowel movement ritual that is. Bowel movement still hurts the incision site area. (And playing with combo of fiber supplements, fibrous foods, water intake, etc has been so frustrating. Found out too much fiber makes big, bulky, frequent stool. )
But back to the point of my post. I am now three weeks out from surgery and 12 days out from restitch of incision. Granted incision site is not as painful second time around but the pain is still there. Like a lump hanging down feeling. I can't take anti-inflammatories either (the toradol was the exception). And there is a small bump by the incision site. It was bigger so I guess I can't complain. And the drainage from the incision seems to have stopped so that's good. But I am having leakage of mucus (?) from butt! Even worse when I walk...like when you're really sweaty but this isn't sweat. And then today...I sneezed. Lawdy be. Something came out. Not a lot but any is too much. I had only heard about sharts in the movies but here I was out in public with the full shart experience. It didn't make it to my underwear...thankfully. I am trying to hold myself together but I feel like I am losing my mind. Will I have incontinence permanently? I know that no one can answer that question but it is weighing so heavy on my mind that at certain moments the world looks grey to me. I am trying hard to remain optimistic since I know that the mind can heal the body but it is so difficult. I've been out of work for 3 weeks, when it was supposed to be only 1-2 weeks and I'm terrified of going back to work tomorrow.
If anyone is having or has had a similar experience or has some advice or something...please share. Not too many people mention incontinence, nevermind whether or not it resolved itself and how long it took to do so. I'm at a loss.