by happyass » 15 Dec 2010, 12:55
hi mr fissure,
i am in your exact same boat and almost same time length in dealing with a fissure - mine was born in 2004!
was so close to doing an LIS in 2008 but my CRS at the time was super conservative and we went ahead with a colonoscopy to rule out other things.
from 2008 thru now, i have had a completely different life than what i knew from 2004-2008 with that fissure. i was no longer scared to go to the toilet, still had constipation issues that aggrevated the area and skin tag and well, i seem to have retore/disturbed the chronic fissure that has been mostly pretty good for these last couple of years.
to be honest, i haven't had the pain like i did before colonoscopy and i just dealt with the saga of the skin tag.
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i have a female CRS who also explained that she would be doing an LIS from a very invasive approach and well, it sounded good to me on Monday and i said, yes. let's get it on baby.
for the most part, i function well. on occasion yes i have ass issues and those are the days that i just ask myself, do i really want to go on like this every year. my left knee is already going bad so i don't need to add on to other out of order things - let's hope i don't need viagra anytime soon! LOL.
so, despite functioning at pretty good capacity - and i even did so on my worst fissure days since i completed 3 marathons under the fissure days and i never was given these creams everyone puts on - so never could tell you what a cream headache feels like!
even through today, i manage my diet solely via eating foods that are right for me - no extra oTC fibers, stool softners, etc. i do keep some Vicks Vapor Rub on hand for Laverne & Shirley.
from what i have seen around here, it seems that the body and the ass get into agreement and start to behave well before LIS and play games with our heads on "am i doing the right thing?"
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my biggest question going into the procedure is that i am hoping that despite all the irritation, pain at times, and worry, that i sincerely don't want to have brought on a new level of worse pain that i will have to live with moving forward.
it's amazing at what my body has adjusted to but also i know it somehow is wiser in knowing that this isn't a way to continue moving forward. having the procedure at this time seemed like it was all effortless and right. i can't explain it. but there was some level of calm and no freaking out like there was in 2008.
normally, i am a happy ass. i like my ass.
i just want it to be healthy and recover from the skin tag and fissure that is there, both of which i could easily continue living with but allowing to challenge me from time to time.
it would be nice to not have those challenges any longer.
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now i can ask my CRS on f/u visit if what she plans to do is the 'closed limited' and if so, the Neuro, I am happy cause I certainly hope it avoids having all that packing down there like a stuffed turkey.
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good luck Mr Fissure.
again if you want to cancel, you can. now is a good time.
i know some people who have done this and they later eventually had it done.
you have to feel that it is right for you.
as scary as it can be and as there will be variables not quite resolved - how much time to recover, will this happen, will that happen....every one will have a different experience.
all i know going into it is that i don't expect to be 100% for about 1 year. i don't expect to heal overnight. i don't expect to send out my ass on modeling jobs in a month. and it won't be walking down no Milan runway in six months.
i do expect to be patient, keep up a good diet, and attempt best to not strain for whatever, especially after surgery.
i know you are double guessing yourself because you feel pretty good. i do too. and it is a thought that i do have in the back of my head. but i have had plenty of great days, more than i thought i ever could not doing the LIS, but i want MORE!
and i really hope that is not being greedy or selfish. it's good right now. but you know, it can be great.