by sphinctersaurus » 16 Jan 2011, 23:24
Thanks Happy,
Yup, my little friend is definitely growing! When I first noticed it was there, it was about the size of the nail on my pinky finger, disc shaped and quite flat. It's at least three times the size now, and has changed shape somewhat as well. It now looks more like a little Kidney.
It's at the front of the butt and has now also formed a web from the left to the right side. The webbed part is especially easy to damage. With my finger, I can feel that the scar tissue extends quite far into the anal canal and protrudes in a kind of wrinkle, which puts a big long trench in my poop as it exits.
For some reason, when my body decides it’s go time, I get the 10 second warning, and the stupid skin tag makes a run for it and scoots up inside. Maybe it's frightened? Maybe it just doesn't like to be crapped on? I dunno! Either way, what goes in must come out! ... And that can really hurt.
I know what you mean about surgery. My ideal would be to have had the fissure really acting up right before surgery; otherwise it's hard to convince yourself that you're doing the right thing. It's such an up and down affair though! I go through periods, as it seems many do, when the fissure is not too bad ... never normal like old times, but manageable. I’ll no sooner accept that surgery is inevitable, when it starts behaving a little. But the next calamity is always just around the corner, and I don't want to live the rest of my life like that!
Thursday isn't long to wait now. Maybe a stupid question, but how nervous are you?