hi everyone :)
what a great place to get support and information! especially on a topic that probably isnt much talked about outside of the internet...
so my story - i am a 21yo female. back in oct 2010, my bathroom was undergoing renovations so i STUPIDLY decided to 'hold it in' for about 3-4 days. when i finally had a bowel movement, it felt like i was passing a baseball, and caused some fissures. i went to a doctor, who put me on things like nitro cream, anusol suppositories, docusate etc. my main medicine was miralax, which i was on for about 5 months, slowly tapering the dosage from a full dose to a half, to a quarter, then finally to none. i got checked after each 'taper' and everything looked fine. however, when i tapered from a qtr dosage to none.. that is what brings me to these boards.
currently, i am on two docusate stool softener tablets a day with no miralax, and fiber supplements. i found that whenever i taper my miralax to a smaller dosage, there is some pain and blood associated with it for about a week or so - i guess my bottom adjusting to 'harder' bowel movements. but when i went from a qtr to zero, its been about two months and i still am having sporadic blood with my BMs and slight pain when i go. my doctor that checked me (manually and with an anoscope, no colonscopy or sigmoidoscopy) said that i did also have a hemorrhoid but didnt think that was where the blood and pain were originating.
the blood and slight - and i mean slight compared to the excruciating fissure pain i experienced back in october - pain happen for about 3 days, then i have ~four days of blood-free BMs. then the cycle repeats. i always poo in the morning, and it totally ruins my mood for the day if i see pain/blood in my BM. my friend's uncle recently passed away from colon cancer, and now i am scared to death that is what i have. i dont understand why i keep developing pain/blood/fissures! one GI doctor (who was really an ass, to put it lightly) wanted me to get a colonscopy but 1. i feel that is extreme just for anal fissures? and 2. i am so so scared of getting one.
what do you all think? i hate how this "mess" started in october and it is still so present. i feel like i am never going to have a normal BM again. i dread eating bc i know it will just come out the other end. and i feel like i will never heal, and i have tried lots of things~!