by StevePain » 29 Nov 2011, 15:56
I thought I'd post an update, 15 months have passed since I first started this thread and I've been to hell and back with pain, discomfort, feeling great, then back to pain, I've had a few months where I thought "YES" I'm healed but sadly this is not the case, I would like to be able to say that LIS worked for me but it's not looking that way, I seem to be locked in a constant battle with my over sensitive rectum and just when it seems I might be winning it hits me again. I know I've stated that LIS hasn't worked for me, but it has gave me good days as well as bad.
I play things over and over in my mind, maybe I ruined the op by ripping my stitches in the first week or maybe I pushed when I shouldn't have, I should be healed, others are so why aint I? This question can't be answered by my GP who must think (by now) that I'm imagining the pain or that I'm just a whinger, since LIS I've seen several doctors who say it's just the nerve endings that are taking a while to heal, I don't believe, and when I got a referral to see my CRS a few months back he just wasn't interested, I didn't actually get to see my surgeon just his understudy who told me that basically some people recover successfully after LIS and there's a minority that have ongoing pain due to the sphincter being compromised and that this could be permanent... Great!!!! I could understand if it was incontinence but ongoing pain that could be intermittent for god knows how long I just can't cope with it, I do try though but the mental toll is hard to beat, I'm just so fed up of ass problems that it's got me really depressed and low, I'm now taking A/D's to help me deal with it but can't really see an end in sight, if after 15 months of ups and downs and I still haven't healed, will I ever?? Nobody knows...