Day 5 has been a turning point for me!!
Even though I haven't been in very much pain at all since my surgery. It was more of a constant nagging ache, more soreness than pain. I really think the worst part is the swelling, but today is definately decreased moderately. The bruising is going away and my fissure feels like it is healing. Still a little sting after a BM, which goes away quickly after the tub, but it is really hard to clean that area even with the shower wand b/c of all the swelling. Today was easier in all aspects :D I have been sitting since day 1 just a little here and there, but today with the swelling being decreased have been sitting a little more with no problems only 400mg of Ibuprofen, I did have a busy day. I know the vets are saying no it's too early, LOL. I am not pushing myself. I did run a couple of errands and go to the grocery store with my daughter, she drove!! She is a mother hen LOL. It felt so good to get out of my pj's and put a running suit on and some make up!!! and then I came home had a swim in the tub and rested the rest of the day. I think more than anything that is helping me is I haven't worn any underware since the day of my surgery no cottonballs no gauze just air!! :oops: wearing nightgowns and Big T shirts I really haven't had much drainage at all. I think that is due to the air and all the swims in the tub. I just put a towel on the couch and in my bed, just in case, but nothing. My surgery experience has been nothing short of a miracle!!! I love my CRS and will kiss him on the 24th when I go for my post op check!!! I had been in pain for sooo long, I forgot what it was like not to be. It is SWEET!!! I am thankful for my husband who has been a saint through this whole experience and helped me more than I can say. Again, I couldn't have done it without the vets, epecially Dawn, and Hope, my new BFF's
you ladies should get an award for all the time you spend in here, epecially after being healed!!!
I am glad my posts are helping. I looked for comfort in other peoples posts, was the only thing that gave me hope!!
Remember to take it easy and let your daughter fuss over you a bit. :D 
Hope. I cannot tell you how great I feel. Life is beautiful again!!! and you are right, most people who get on the other side are gone. I feel, like I received help when needed by and you and Dawn. You girls really helped me, so I am going to return the favor. If I can help just one person, calm their fears answer a question, then I am more than happy to do that.
and am so nervous and worried if i'm making the right decision. My fissure has been a lot better the past two weeks so I've even thought about cancelling it. My husband though has been reminding me of times it has got better and then returned. I just don't want to be making the wrong decision especially as I am young and plan to have another three kids! (I already have a 4mth old). 