hi everyone, haven't been on for awhile becasue my fissure was not causing any problems just some mild burning now and then. The last 3 days a bit more burning and checked, the place where the fissure was in indented already about 1 month but in there are 2 small red lines and 1 is alittle red around it. I ate macoroons(coconut) and i think it scratched me there, i can see the small pieces in stool. I wonder is this 2 retears. I hope not. I'm seeing dr. on fri and get him to check.

Aw, sputnik. This is such a battle. I know how you feel.
I'm so fed up with all of this, that I could either cry or scream - but I'm too worn out to scream.
Hang in there. Keep things soft going in, so that they'll be soft coming out.

thanks, sweet bugaboo. I scream sometimes but all it does is cause me more stress. So far i haven't pushed for about 3months. I totally forgot about the coconut becasue i had slowly added different foods back but i will not add the chips, peanuts or popcorn for sure. I know i was eating things i wasn't supposed to eat and i did wrong but you learn from your mistakes.

sputnik, I like your forum name, btw. It's cute. Mine is a nickname for one of my sons. He's always been my "Sweet Bugaboo."
Yes, anything hard or crunchy is probably going to be a problem. --- I've said for years that I would probably end up on baby food, and that's just about happened.

that is really cute, your son's nickname. I didn't know what to put for me so i just thought of my brother's nickname, sputnik. Its not actually his used nickname but my mother gave him so many nicknames and sputnik was one of them.

Awww sputnik, I haven't seen you here for quite a while. sorry you are back. I had my surgery last Monday and thankfully a new woman. I hope you start feeling better soon. Not giving you the speach about food water or miralax, you already know. Feel better soon

thanks sue, hope your recovering fast. I haven't read much here lately. I'm going to catch up. Its very cold here tonight, -35 but feels like -47. were having a wind chill alert. I had to let my dog in. I'm just hoping i didn't tear in 2 spots.

Thanks Sputnik. Yes, I am healing very well. I feel so bad because, I feel so good and so many of you are still in pain. It is freezing in Maryland too. Lots of wind this morning and cold. Supposed to snow this weekend, just a little though. I hope you didn't tear in 2 spots also, hell one tear is enough for anyone. Feel better soon!!

that's really good news, and i hope it keeps up. Its still so unbelievable what these little cuts can do.

well saw dr. yesterday and he didn't even check under the skin tag where the 2 small lines were. Im checking again tomorrow. I worry about infection.