i feel like ive been suffering from this condition my whole life i cant remeber how or when it stared but im 22 now and im getting it more frequently. i think it got worse with puberty. am i the only person who has had one so long?
with me i wont have any pain or bleeding for ages and il think its gone and them il go to the tiolet and it will open again in the same place! i dont know if its the same 1 reopening again or what. it hapens about once a month. sometimes less. il have awful pain during bowel movement and then alot of blood on toilet paper after. it usually lasts a couple of days to a week. sometimes i just get the pain but no blood. i think its brought on by stess or anxiety. i dont really have contsant pain like most people describe but i do feel a slight itch or pricking sensation that comes on in waves or a sudden sharp stab that goes away instantly or a thumping feeling like a can feel my own pulse there, its so wired, but its not constant. i also have this lump inside that flares up sometimes that the doc said was probably a hemmeroid, it hurts and itches sometimes inside me, i can feel it there and sometimes it comes out whan i have bowel movement but goes back in on its own. anyone else have this?
ive been to the docs twice but they just fob it off as nothing that will go, but it doesnt! it always comes back! im getting worried now that its getting worse coz ive had it over a month now wich is really long, the bleeding during bowel movment is not going and i can feel a lump next to it getting bigger.
im getting so bitter about this as i have such a healthy diet, i olny eat wholegrain bread, pasta ect. have bran flakes and brown rice. eat at least 5 fruit and veg a day, dont eat alot of meat. i eat more fish than meat. i dont eat a lot of fried, fatty or processed food, and only drink water or fruit smoothies/juice so why does this happen to me?! its so unfair.
its taking over my life and making me so depressed, im only 22 and feel like my lifes over. im too scared to see a surgeon coz its expensive and if i need surgery i might make me incontinent and then il just die. at the moment im eating harly anything, just driend fruit like prunes, fruit smoothies, soup, boiled veg and a little nibble of cheese of bread. i feel so hungy all the time but i dont wanna eat coz i just dont want it to come out the other end. im taking stool softeners too. it seems to be getting a little better at theres less bleeding with bm. im also using the wheatgrass cream but cant tell if its working.