Oh Andy, I'm so sorry! Well, I saw the private guy and he said he didn't expect to see me again but if I needed to I could go back. In the last couple of weeks things have improved in the 'fissure department'. I still have the odd twinge every now and again, but I am off the painkillers and haven't used rectogesic for 5 days and things seem ok. Last time I tried to stop this it was horrendous so fingers crossed. I have almost stopped the lactulose and am only on movicol now (which I think it would be a good idea to continue, my doctor said its pretty harmless really). I am going through patch tests in a few weeks time to sort my skin problem, if it comes back negative I am on some long term medication to relieve pain. My only major problem now is pain between my bum cheeks at the top by my coccyx, the doc keeps saying theres nothing there but it really hurts at times. Mind you that has improved a bit. I am going back about that after the patch tests as I will need to see him anyway. You have to be persistent don't you, I've learnt that! I'm not giving up and living with it just yet. Overall things are much better though, even went on a day out yesterday and only had minor twinges.
I'm so sorry to say this as you're suffering, it must be so lowering to still be like you are. Thats unusual that the surgery hasn't worked, but sometimes people do have to have the operation again so don't lose heart. Take it a day at a time and focus on Nov 12th first. Then I'd put a time limit. If you don't get any help on the 12th, say to yourself you'll at least go and get an opinion from a different CRS privately. You'll at least get the time then to talk things through, having half an hour makes all the difference rather than the rushed 10 mins you get on the NHS!! I know how you must be feeling as I have felt like you (obviously) but don't lose heart. Keep positive, the person on the 12th may be the person who can sort the problem. If they can't, theres a reason for that and its because you're then meant to meet someone else who can who'll be better. I'm not on here as much lately as not too much to report but I will pop in to see how you get on at your next consultation. Keep updating, you know where I am :)