Hi All,
I'm happy to join this forum. Here is my story. I had my first baby on 11/15/2012 and my hemorroids went out of control. I had it before and it would came to say hello to me once in a few years. I had it since 1998. But after I had natural birth it was awful. Me and my surgeon agreed the surgery is the solution! So, I had my surgery on 11/30/12 which is 2 weeks after my delivery. Oh God! I did not know it would hurt that much. I would rather have a another baby than having this surgery!
First check up with my surgeon : everything look good and pain is expected
Second check up : I have scar tissue and mild anal stenosis (narrowing) : that's why i still had pain and that want to push feeling. I did not mind having pain during BM and after. But I started having this nasty feeling which feels like I need to pass a gas and I could not (like i dont have a hole :() or I need to have BM but nothing would come out. This feeling just took over everything, my life ... I have a 2 months old baby to take care of ... I have been sick lots of times and dealed with so many pains. And I do have very high tolerance in pain according to my hubby and friends ...
So third check up with Surgeon (he has been dilating my anus manually since he thought that I have scar tissue which caused the narrow anal) said that I need to see my GI doctor.
I went to see my GI and he examined my bottom simply with his finger and he said that i have ANAL FISSURE. i asked him that if that cause this nasty want to push feeling and he said not sure but maybe. SO he prescribed me Nitroglycerin ointment. I started using it since yesterday and I have minimal pain during BM and after. I have been almost living in bath tub since the hem surgery and it helps like wonder for the pain and discomfort. Today I even had to hold my baby in the bath tub with me to get some comfortable hours for me ;(
Only thing drives me crazy (even suicidal thought ) is this nasty want to push feeling.
Has anyone have this feeling and how did it go? and is there any advice for me? I'm seeing my surgeon on tuesday but he seems like just throwing me to my GI doctor. I will see my GI doctor on 2/1/2013 and I will definitely ask him to take it seriously about this feeling and I will tell him that I'm almost pain free and no blood in the stool.
Please share your thoughts. I really need someone to listen me and advice me. My husband got sick of I'm being sick all the time and overwhelmed with new baby and finance of our household. (I haven;t been able to work since my pregnancy leave and I don't see go back to work next 6-12 months. now my hubby is trying to get me some insurance before I loose my insurance from work.)
Please help me!!!!