My story is a bit long, but I would really appreciate if you read it all, and gave me some advice. I'm legitimately concerned, so any information or advice would be extremely appreciated and helpful as I know nothing about fissures. Not sure if this makes any difference, but I am a 21 year old male.
I first noticed the area becoming extremely itchy about 7 months ago (possibly a bit longer), but only at night while I was trying to fall asleep and occasionally after I woke up in the morning. Over time the itching gradually got worse, and eventually I would claw at it trying to alleviate it. It never hurt, just itched an incredible amount. Scratching was extremely satisfying and it typically went away after a while, and I almost never would experience the itching in the middle of the day.
After about 2 months, the itching started to burn and hurt. The reason I never looked into this was mostly due to being embarrassed / extremely busy with work and school, but also to do with the fact that it wasn't a constant chronic itch/pain. It just occurred mostly at night or if I started irritating the area myself, so in the daytime I wasn't even thinking about it.
More recently, the area started to hurt more than itch. The itching was still there, but it was a painful itch. It felt like there were tiny shards of glass pierced within my skin. This is when I decided to finally take a good look at the area and see just what was going on. I know what you're thinking, 'You didn't think to look at the area months ago?' Well, no. Not really. I briefly would check it out in the bathroom mirror after a shower sometimes, but I never noticed anything at all. Granted I wasn't up close and personal and the angle wasn't ideal, but from what I could tell everything seemed fine.
So once the itching turned more into pain, I got a handheld mirror and lied in bed to get a really good look. To my surprise, I saw tiny cuts all over my anus. It actually looked like someone took a small knife and cut lines into it. The cuts were various sizes, some smaller some bigger, some straight lines, some squiggly and uneven. But I think the thing that shocked me the most, is just how many of them there were. It looked like 5 or 6. That's when I finally put aside everything and spent hours researching what this means and trying to get answers. I came across anal fissures, a term I've heard before but never really knew exactly what they were. It seems that this is my problem, of course it is just self diagnosed as I have not seen a doctor.
Currently It does not hurt at all unless I actually touch the cuts, or fissures. The itching is still pretty strong (again, generally only in the night and mornings) but I noticed today that the skin around my anal area is almost leathery. I think it's due to the months of scratching, but when I touch, it almost feels like I'm not even touching a part of my body. It's not soft or sensitive like the area normally should be. I looked in the mirror closely again tonight, and I kid you not, there are over 10 fissures to my count. There could be more. They're pretty much everywhere.
My main question is, is it normal to have SO many? and what the hell causes this? I suppose you're all going to tell me to see a doctor, and that's understandable. Obviously I'd rather not. I haven't tried any home remedies or changes to my diet yet, so I would like to try to give that a go first. Again, any information would be really appreciated. Thank you.