by Ever the Optimist » 16 Apr 2013, 14:09
Hi Fedupkitty,
It sounds to me like you have got yourself so stressed out, so tense, so scared with the whole issue that this is a major part of your issue....You are almost stopping yourself from "releasing" because you can't relax in anyway and let go and I can totally understand that and it's a horrible horrible place to be....Everyone here is right when they say you have to consume lots of fluids - Overeat on fruits and veggies (lots of OJ with "bits") to the point you get your stools runny if you have to - just so you get used to releasing something (as Positive Girl) has also mentioned. Even a laxative at this stage could be a consideration? I'd seriously recommend a good chat with a GP you are comfortable with, about the whole stress thing you are going through because you need to break the cycle. I was actually prescribed anti-depressants to get through the worst and although they're not for everyone, short term, they can be a true friend in helping you just cope with the intensity of it all. Again, Valium, is amazing for giving you a release from the burden you are carrying and although these are obviously not for long-term use, you just need something at this stage to help you and I know they helped me at my very worst too. I would honestly go seek some help with your stress levels and work on reducing these too and as YOU calm down, everything else will start to calm down too. Oh! and totally agree with OMB - Take a painkiller a good half hour before you have a BM to get some pain relief kicking in to take the rawness off the whole ordeal. Truly good luck to you - You WILL get through this cycle but sounds like you really do need some help right now xx Lots of slow deep breaths!
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