I know this is a really old thread and I'm sorry for posting again but haven't been here in a while. Just wanted to mention, I also get really scared of bleeding, especially when I've had a strangely painful BM (which I don't have too frequently anymore) and then I see a lot of blood, b/c I'm guessing that means a re-tear. I pretty much always see a bit of blood though even if the BM wasn't very painful, I heard that's just a part of the fissure. I'm not even sure when or if this fissure will heal anymore, I'm just trying to live my life and find hope in other things :) but I think the blood is a normal sign of the fissure being there. My fissure(s) are more likely to show blood if I've been irritating the area like using harsh toilet paper or if my stupid skin tag has been itchy or irritating while I clean myself. I don't know if blood is always a bad thing - probably only sometimes

not to reopen an old thread
but i guess its the stress/anxiety of going for my colonoscopy this tuesday,
that ive had ruff bm's the last few days with blood again
after 6 months of freedom/no blood good bm's
it feels like im starting over again
an yah when you see blood i FREAK, that im bleeding to death, lol and its so hard to find someone to talk to about it. unless you been there. people dont want to hear it
my biggest fear is when they do the scope i will be bleeding worse , or they will tear something up again UGH

Sorry you're bleeding again. I know just how you feel when you see blood. I do about every 2-3 weeks and it can take a good couple of weeks to stop. Just knowing every morning it's probably going to be on the TP is no fun. And I get myself worked up to the point of getting a sick stomach. I'll be glad when someone can explain what's causing it for me.
I have my colonoscopy Monday afternoon, so I'll be on and off the board after that for a day or so. Depends on how quickly I bounce back. I'm anemic right now, so not sure how tired I'll be after all the stupid prep and anesthesia. But, I'll check in to see how you're doing after yours. Please keep us updated.
This is definitely the place to talk about feeling scared about the bleeding. There are a bunch of people here who understand exactly what you're going through.
Julie

this site is awesum
thanks for the support, i will definately have ya'll in my prayers an we all can support each other