by sotiredofthis » 01 Oct 2013, 07:46
Hi everyone,
Quick background: I've had this stupid fissure for one year now. Wow I can't believe I've been dealing with this for so long! Typical heal/re-tear rollercoaster. I've used nitro with much success just can't get it to heal completely and stay healed!
Here's the latest. I saw another CRS yesterday as the one I was seeing has taken off a year to go back to school. This appointment was awful. Really awful! The CRS was very rough and yesterday and today I am in more pain. I am dreading my BM this morning. Not a great bedside manner either. He does have 25 years experience as a board certified CRS though. I really miss my original CRS!
Anyway, the first CRS recommended Botox as a first treatment and tag removal. He was much more conservative especially since I have IBS. This new CRS however says I need LIS, tag removal, and hemmie surgery. He thinks the Botox would just be a band-aid. He claims in 25 years he has never had anyone have long term incontinence. He also says if by chance that would happen he could go in and fix it. He thinks after the surgery I would be up and about in less than a week. From the stories I've read here, I don't think a week is any where close to correct!
To say I'm scared to death is an understatement. I know I can't do anything until January. I have so much going on in the next 3 months that I can't risk any further problems. After reading all the posts on here of surgeries and complications, I am so afraid of something going wrong. Be it either incontinence or more pain or worse yet surgery failure. I'm so tired of this controlling my life!!!!
I have 4 kids at home. 2 who work and go to college and 2 that I homeschool. How on earth am I supposed to take care of myself and them after surgery?
I just don't even know what to do or where to start. Please offer any advice you can.
Thanks for listening.