Yeah leahnola
Just having a bm may have something to do with your flare-ups too. The less pushing and straining the better.
Its good to hear that your daughter is doing better than expected also, my heart goes out to you two.
Looks like you've found a nice little niche there in the hospital and I hope the rest of your stay only gets better.
You must really be relieved from those spasms and lets hope they take a permanent vacation from you soon. They are so off and on-ish though, so make sure you do not run out of the Diltiazem.
The slight stinging is most natural for us and is probably from the healing fissure site. I now you cant wait to get back home with your daughter and we'll keep our finger crossed and prayers ascending that there will be no complicatin for you and especially your daughter once you'all are back home.
May God bless you Leahnola and your Daughter with a speedy recovery...