The pain finally got too much, went to Doc last night and got anti depressant and Gabapentin ( used for epilepsy but can help nerve pain, but also the FDA has put out a report as there is a high risk if increased suicidal thoughts,! Mmmm good thing when I'm already there)
anyway after I had a BM today I was litterly sobbing from the pain for hours, phoned doc who said there was nothing else the could do an it's my choice if I wanted to go to a and e so my hubby took me up only for them to tell me 'it's not there area of expertise , your GP needs to help' !
So that was my last option , what do I do now, aside end it all ( I'm only half joking there) . The GP is trying to get to talk to the Surgeon so I'll be phoning again tomorrow and the next day , I'm going to ask if I can get morphine at home, god I need SOMETHING :( :( :( :(
Oh and get this! The new gabapentin takes 3 weeks to work!!!! Mmmmm that's a good one to use for incredible pain, and it makes me feel really weird and anxious which I think is a side effect so I'll stop that I think' man you lot should see the box full of pills I have, no guesses how to end it all then! The GP has given me the AD and the Gabapentin on a weekly dispense because if how I'm feeling, mmmm, he seemed to have forgotten about the 240 paracetamol and 60 tramadol he gave me last week!
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