How is everyone here coping? I'm having trouble, and I'm really in a weepy slump.
After almost 3 months of this misery, I had thought I might be turning the corner - but I'm not even sure about that, given the spikes of pain I've had.
Anyway - this a.m. I had a (post-prune) explosive BM, and now I feel some soreness down below again - pain level at about a 4-5. It's hard to even give the pain a number, because I'm in such a mental slump.
I just don't want to go out, I don't want to see anyone, and I'm on the verge of tears. I'm going to have to force myself to shower - and then I'll pray for God's forgiveness for not being stronger or having more faith. I realize that (for me) this is a spiritual battle, too, along with an actual physical battle.
I don't know how my husband can tolerate all of this. I'm a raggedy mop of what I used to be. Seriously, it's true. --- I've had friends contacting me - one wants to go out for lunch, one wants me to come visit, etc. - and I just can't be around anyone right now. Of course, I don't care to discuss this problem with them . . . And my family? Well, I've pretty much sunk into a hole - so, they're on their own right now. My daughter has a doctor's appt. tomorrow - and it's an important appt., and she needs my support - and I'm wondering if I can rally myself to go with her . . .
Honestly - this is not like anything I've ever gone through in my life. Just the thought that things are still sore down below, is enough to keep me in a total funk, unless I can fight it very hard.
How are you all able to keep going, without totally being a mess???