Hi Zodiak..... Welcome to the forum!
Firstly, I would suggest reading through as much of the forum as possible to get tips and advice. I found it a god send at the start.
You can buy a sitz bath off amazon. Mine has been a godsend... The warm water around your butt really helps things relax... And get clean after a bm. It really helps take some of the pain away... Which sounds like you could do with!
I must say I was a little shocked at your crs's response.... Sounds like an ar*e to me! I had the same problem as you... The crs worked in the local private hospital. In the end I travelled to London and saw a private crs, who offered to treat me on the nhs. He is great... I highly recommend him... I can give you his details if you want them.
Marathon girl,
Sorry to hear your struggling so much with your feelings. I don't think any one else would realise what a huge impact an anal fissure has on your mental health. My only advice is to keep busy... But don't push yourself too hard. Just keep reminding yourself that things will get better... It just takes time.
OMB x