Did it yoohoo! I am a female now :)
I read this somewhere, thought I'd share. Gave me strength..
"Three years ago, I was torn out of normal college life when I fell very ill. I ended up spending two months in the hospital as the doctors tried to figure out what was wrong with me. By this time, I had undergone numerous procedures, became severely anemic, and lost a lot of weight. The whole time, I kept thinking I'd go back to school any day now. Finally, my doctor scheduled me for one last biopsy. If this still turned up inconclusive, I would have to undergo surgery so they could get a larger sample and diagnose me. I was so scared because I had never had surgery. More than anything, I wanted to know what was wrong so I could go back home to my own bed.
Until then, I had been to weak to pray standing. I would pray sitting on a chair or in bed but that day, I asked my mom to help me stand so I could pray. As soon as I started praying, I felt this calm feeling wash over me and I knew whatever happened, it would be okay. The next day, I got the good/bad news. Good news: I didn't need the surgery. Bad news: I had cancer. It had metastasized and was staged at 4. I was rushed into treatment right away. Treatment, for lack of a better word, sucked. Despite the amount of physical pain, emotionally I was fine. Despite my oncologists warning that the treatment had a 50% chance of being effective, I never felt afraid. I felt safe, I could honestly feel that God was by my side through it all. And, luckily, I had/have an amazing family that held my hand every step of the way. I think it was harder for them to watch me go through all that than it actually was for me to experience it.
With the mercy of God, I went into remission a year later and it hasn't come back since. Since then, I have become a strong advocate for young adult cancer patients.
When bad things happen to us, we tend to pity ourselves and ask "why me?" The thing is, everyone has dark moments in their lives and it might feel like the end of the world when you're down there, but there is a bigger plan for us. It is in those moments that we learn the most, gain strength and clarity, and find who we truly are. I wouldn't wish cancer on anyone, but had it not been for my cancer, I wouldn't have found my passion. I wouldn't have this oppurtunity to connect to so many under served patients and help them find their own hope."