First off, thanks to all the people that have backed me up! I appreciate the kind words and advice !
Let me say that anxiety does not run my life, I do not let it get out of control... I think some of the words I used got taken out of context. I also was a bit dramatic with my words, but I did not intend to offend anyone.
Yes, I am terrified of diarrhea.. not too the point where it controls my life at this point. Obviously I fear diarrhea because that is what caused my fissure or contributed to it. I also had constipation but I am not sure which actually caused it. Like if you got shot ? wouldn't it be normal to fear guns ? Yes as a fissure sufferer I focus on my BM's a lot more then the normal person. I just am curious how much damage a good week of diarrhea would have on my semi-healed fissure ! If it can cause a fissure, what would it do to my butt ? that is basically my fear !
It makes me happy that a coating of vaseline or zinc oxide cream may help if that happens ! I just want to know how much it helps ! and how effective it could be ? Basically if I knew 100% that it would help a lot then I would not fear diarrhea so much !
Basically, I just do not want to be back where I was 3 years ago ! and I hope diarrhea won't do that !
I am feeling pretty good, just want to keep it that way.