Welcome Jules !
I was so sorry to read about your road accident and now your fissure
We really do understand the losing our minds part – only to well !
Jules, a wise one here once told me that when I was ready for the surgery I would be eager as to jump on that operating table and she was right ! You will know when you cannot take any more and that cycle of good and bad days just becomes too much …
I have had G/A 5 times now and have no problems, I hope what Kim said about you having G/A before is reassuring, please do not be scared of surgery for many here it was the best decsion they had made..
I agree with Cheryl that it helps to get a little inside, also half an hour before BM you could try applying some cream and even after too :)
I really hope you continue to have more good days Jules