Hi I am new on here and need some advice. I have had internal piles or 10 years and I had a very large anal tag for 9 years.
Now here is the stupid thing I did. I was so embarrassed of my tag that it got to the point where I had just had enough. It itched, was difficult to get clean after a BM and had occasional pain, but mostly to be honest I couldn't stand the thought of my partner looking down there and when we split up I was mortified at the thought of someone else seeing it. So I tied it with dental floss which didn't work and cased pain and massive mounts of bleeding due to the size. You see although I have had two children I just couldn't face talking to my doctor about it.
Long story short after seeing four different emergency doctors as I had a high temp and felt faint due to the blood loss and pain, I had to have emergency surgery in October. This is without a doubt the most stupid thing I have ever done and I have been paying for it ever since. When I had the tag removal surgery they also removed a internal pile.
Now every time I go to the toilet it is either rock solid (sometimes I can't go for up to four days) and hurts like hell or I have diarrohea. On the few occasions my BM is 'normal' i still hurts. I can't even slightly part my bum cheeks without it feeling like something is ripping and the last time I saw the doctor ten days post surgery she said it looked normal.
I just want my life back but don't know what to do. I am back with my ex partner and it is affecting our sex life due to positions I can stand due to the leg parting and anal sex is a massive no go.
Please could anyone help with anything that could make things a little better.