So here's the story (I apologize if this is in the wrong place as I just joined, I found this board while googling and it seemed like a friendly, helpful place, so I joined), I'm pretty certain I have an anal fissure but I'm not sure and I can't go to a doctor. I don't have health insurance and I don't have a job so I could only go to a doctor if it was an emergency. I just don't have the money to spare. I just wanted to sort of describe what's been going on to see if it sounds familiar to people who have been dealing with anal fissures.
I'm 19, and a few weeks ago I went out of town to visit some relatives, I have an odd thing where I don't like to use anyone else's toilet for going #2 but my own. Basically I went five days without going and when I finally did, there was a lot of straining, I don't recall if there was pain or not but there was blood. There's been blood twice more since... I didn't check too closely but I don't think it was in the stool, which I know from googling is a warning sign of colon cancer. I think I just tore something and bled as a result. The most recent time there was blood, there was pain for the rest of the day, hours afterward.
Anyway, googling led me to think I've got an anal fissure. But when I check in the mirror now all I can see on the outside (TMI probably, if it hasn't been up to now, I'm sorry) is a sort of dark horizontal line/sort of tear or scar on the outside? Is it supposed to look like that, is that a sign it's healing, or something odd? I'm a highly anxious person and I keep fretting that I've got colon cancer, against all odds, even though the anal fissure makes more sense. Infinitely more sense. But all that I can see outside is what I described and I'm not sure if that's a sign of a fissure or not. I've been taking warm baths and that seems to make me feel better, and I've had some fiber supplements for a couple days and it's not hurt and there's been no blood any time I've gone since.
Anyway that's my story...any advice or comments welcome, apologies if I've goofed up somehow posting this. I can't stop fretting and worrying.