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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 05 May 2015, 13:42

Hi MS,

you're so right - I know I feel better than before Botox it's just the fissure hasn't made me really down until now I just guess I had really high hopes of what botox would do for me? I can't tell where the bleeding is coming from but it's streaked all over the stools. nothing like fissure blood that used to drop into the loo. I think you're right RE: my daily log and I suppose it should be weekly however I see it more as therapy and it helps for me to vent I guess.

Thanks so much for replying, big hugs back - I'm so glad we are not alone in this.

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Re: My Diary...

Postby msimon » 05 May 2015, 14:03

You are very welcome. Vent away! That is what this forum is for. It's good to let it all out! I know what you mean about the high hopes.

We all absolutely have the right to be better, and fast, when we go through so much and submit ourselves to painful procedures but reality is harsh and healing there is so slow, but it does happen, amazingly, somehow.
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 06 May 2015, 12:35

awful day. I've been having stabbing pain between 6/7pm all day at work and I'm just so fed up!!! finally got my follow up through with my CRS which is the 5th of June (week before my bday!)

excuse me whilst i go scream into a pillow.

FF
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GTN cream - migraines!
Manuka Honey / Coconut oil / Aloe
tag excision X 2, botox x 3
Dilatiazem
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 07 May 2015, 14:56

Better day than yesterday thank god. moreso of a deep burning again - maybe due to the fact that I had 2 BMS today. no blood though! woohoo.
Suffering since June 2013

Methods tried:
GTN cream - migraines!
Manuka Honey / Coconut oil / Aloe
tag excision X 2, botox x 3
Dilatiazem
dilatation 2 X daily + Retin-C Vitamin Scar Treatment Oil 2 X daily - best thing ever.
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Re: My Diary...

Postby msimon » 07 May 2015, 15:09

Glad to hear you had a better day. No blood is very good indeed! :cheerleader:

Sure sucks how much each day can vary doesn't it? It's like being on a rollercoaster from hell!
Dec '13 Fissure from anoscope
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'08-'15 Botox for pelvic floor dysfunction
Nov '14 LIS/sentinel tag removal
Feb '15 Deroofing of recurrent infection from LIS
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 08 May 2015, 15:44

happy week three anniversary of botox/banding to me! I'm actually not feeling terrible. I'm getting weird sensations all day and the odd twinge of pain but it's nothing as bad as it once was. I find myself eager to get to 100% but I know I'm far from that. I feel whats happened is my hemmis have fallen off but have left ulcers that are like the fissure - struggling to heal. Hope you all have a good weekend
FF x
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Methods tried:
GTN cream - migraines!
Manuka Honey / Coconut oil / Aloe
tag excision X 2, botox x 3
Dilatiazem
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 09 May 2015, 04:48

Bowel motion this am not bad at all :-) just a pinch of pain and there was what looked like fresh clotted blood on the stool - might be from the last of a hemmi. Besides this, I've got this feeling in my heart I'm finally on my way to healing :-) no spasms! Yay

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GTN cream - migraines!
Manuka Honey / Coconut oil / Aloe
tag excision X 2, botox x 3
Dilatiazem
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Re: My Diary...

Postby msimon » 09 May 2015, 13:04

This is very good news. Yeah that botox can take its sweet time kicking in. Glad it seems to be working so far!
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'08-'15 Botox for pelvic floor dysfunction
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Scientist2516 » 09 May 2015, 22:19

Keep going FF. Rollercoaster from hell just describes it, but even the longest ride comes to an end. You can beat this thing!
Nifedipine/lidocaine, no help
Diltiazem, effective, but caused major rash
Nitroglycerine, effective.
Topical estrogen for final healing.
Gentle heat to bottom - pain relief, muscle relaxant
Kondremul mineral oil
Time - lots of time.
Status - Healed!
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Re: My Diary...

Postby Fissurefrustration » 10 May 2015, 02:53

I hope I can!! Thanks for the words of encouragement :-) bm this morning was more painful than yesterday. Looked into the bowl after and on the stools there just looks like quite a few clumps of fresh blood (light red not dark red) not sure what that means but I hope it stops soon - I'm guessing the hemmi wounds still haven't healed over?
also the pain has now subsided but left with an internal itch that's pretty horrid! arrgh!

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Methods tried:
GTN cream - migraines!
Manuka Honey / Coconut oil / Aloe
tag excision X 2, botox x 3
Dilatiazem
dilatation 2 X daily + Retin-C Vitamin Scar Treatment Oil 2 X daily - best thing ever.
Now pain free 2/7/21
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