Today I was about to post that after two plus months of religious treatment my af had finally healed; however, this morning -much to my chagrin- there was blood on the wipe after a regular, non strain , no pain BM.
I am so disappointed and discouraged and sad. After a few hours of this morning's bm, some discomfort developed; nothing like the excruciating pain I had had.
If the fissure reopened, I can't seem to find the answer to why this has happened when I had finally reached the point that felt complete healing and normalcy. I must add that although I already felt healed, I decided to finish the ointment and continued applying the Diltiazem compound prescribed.
My life for the past two and a half months has been around the af, treatment ... I am afraid of any long car rides, of taking a vacation, changing geographic locations and having to deal with jet lags and messing my bm routine.
Is this what I should expect in the future?