So am having a bad day today. It is really the anxiety that gets to me the most. I had a few weird sensation earlier, little stabs and a bit of aching and convinced myself it was all going wrong so went to the bathroom and had a feel about (tmi!) but nothing hurt or felt bad, The fissure is painless when I poo and when I feel inside it is also painless. The sentinal pile has shrunk right down but I still feel these weird feelings and the odd bit of soreness. I also get the odd fleeting spasm but remember getting these before the fissure and especially around the time I ovulate.
I just don't know how to stop obsessing about it all, I keep worrying that it is not totally healed and, as I have 2 small kids, I will catch a stomach bug and it will flare up again. Sorry this is turning into a rant but I am just not feeling it today!!