Hi everyone,
Well, I saw a new CRS yesterday to discuss possible LIS surgery under general anesthesia, and unfortunately it did not go well. : ( We didn't even discuss surgery since he was more interested in my diet (which is fiber-filled enough as it is and very healthy) and telling me to take Metamucil (1 tablespoon) and 2 Colace daily, as well as Xylocaine ointment. He didn't even offer Nifedipine, which is what I really want to try, since the Diltiazem gives me a rash and itching now. I also asked him about Miralax, but he said it's a laxative and shouldn't be used every day longterm. Guess every doctor has a different opinion about that.
The exam was a disaster. He wouldn't explain what he was about to do beforehand and got extremely frustrated with me because I was so nervous and tight down there. He kept telling me to move my butt to the end of the exam table, which I thought I was doing as I scooted over, but apparently wasn't doing it well enough, so he started yelling at me. He examined the outside only and couldn't see anything because my fissure is internal. I think he wanted to use the scope, but wouldn't tell me if he would or not. Honestly, the fear of the scope was probably driving my anxiety more than anything else because I didn't want to get torn again by it since I'm so tight. The nurse was no help, either, since she was very rude and wasn't willing to do anything to help me other than stand there staring at me.
Then, afterward, he told me I needed to get mental help for my anxiety issues because my behavior wasn't normal and that basically he didn't want to deal with me (not said in his words, but in his behavior, with his constant sighing and clear frustrating in his gestures and voice). He then said fissures are not life-threatening and that it's "only pain," so I should be able to deal with it. At that point, I lost all respect for him since, as everyone knows on this board, fissures are VERY debilitating, even though they are considered "minor" compared to other afflictions.
I was really putting a lot of hope into this CRS because he was recommended by my GP and has 38+ years of experience in the practice. So, I'm really hurt and disappointed at the moment.
Sorry for my rant, but I just wanted to vent after that horrible experience yesterday. I know I'm a very anxious person with an anxiety disorder and need help with it, but I didn't need to be yelled at about it and treated like some kind of nutcase. I know many others on here have had similar bad experiences with doctors, so I don't feel so alone.
In any case, thank you for listening.