by missy moo » 28 May 2017, 06:31
Thanks every one your so right I guess I just feel like i got through this some stuff with my first son an I got to a point where I enjoyed breast feeding it was special an something only mommy can give I guess its half for my baby an half for me why I don't want to give up but when the pain is so bad I just break down an cry all day an feel doomed an I see no way out I guess 4 hours of sleep in one stretch doesn't help I think my body is telling me alot of things I've suffered from anxiety since the age of about 8 I've never looked after myself in the ways I should i think I've always been run down an pushed myself past a comfortable point an I've not taken time to rest or look after myself no down time. I don't know how to fix an thing though even though I know I need to work on myself an repair me then maybe the fissure will repair or I'll make a clear decision regarding surgery an I'll heal well afterwards?