No, please do not feel sorry for me. I'm doing okay. I've healed 100% each time and I do believe I have healed this time too. I'm not in any pain. This fissure has probably helped save my life as I've looked at my diet more closely and I've lost about 16 lbs so far. I've sought out a dietitian and am considering a psychologist to help me deal better with stress. My fissure was the result of a week of bad food plus stress over my job and a promotion. I mean major stress. I hated working the evening rotation as I couldn't see my kid at night and my schedule was all over the place. My family aka my husband would plan weekend outings and tell me a day or 2 prior and of course I'd be scheduled on that weekend. So when a 9-5 mon-fri posting at work came up, instead of just giving it my best, it turned into a my life will be over if I don't get this. Then, boom, fissure.
Anyway, I'm on the right track with it all now. 14 weeks of healing today, pain free.
I know that you must be frustrated. Feb is a long wait. I was there back in September, waiting to try to get a referral to a dietitian and maybe a colorectal surgeon then was told it would be 6 weeks to even get in to get the referral. Time did go fairly quickly. It will for you too. My fingers are crossed that you get some answers and solutions.