Hi - I know exactly how you feel with being unable to imagine it ever going away. (but it will :) !!) . The worst part for me was knowing that I created the fissure myself with the suppository, and that I'd caused myself months of something avoidable!
Have you been to the doctor? Are you taking any lactulose/miralax? Do you think you are constipated/are you having to strain when you go to the bathroom? If you don't think you're straining or constipated and you're still bleeding after 2 months I would say ask your doctor to double check the cause of the bleeding just to be sure. Or if you are straining/having hard bm's and not yet using any kind of stool softener try this for a week and see if it helps.
It's been about 6-7 weeks since my last post and everything is still going well, I'm trying my best to keep up with lots of water, oats with chia seeds etc just to try balance everything.
I had one tiny issue about 3 weeks ago - I came to the end of my lactulose bottle and I had gotten down to taking only 10ml before bed. I thought "maybe I can just stop this now". And after just 2 days without it the bm was super hard and due to a bit of staining I caused a very small bit of bleeding (but no pain). I decided that for now, until I stop breastfeeding I need to continue the lactulose then trial stopping it again later down the line. Other than that I would say I am still fully healed from the fissure. The small tag I had at the end of the fissure has shrunk (now the size of a chia seed) so not really noticeable.
You will heal and you will get there - 1 day at a time. <3