Hello all. Please forgive my english as i'm not native english speaker.
I first had my fissure around October, i'm certain it's a mixture of several problems leading to me having my fissure. Hemorroids and surgically removing an external skintag together with poor diet lead to me having my fissure in Oct.
It immediately halted my entire life. I was unable to work, put intense pressure on my relationship with my SO and family. I'm beyond impressed with how many of you can still manage your life while suffering from this, I couldn't function as a human with my fissure.
The bleeding I could live with but the pain from spasm was unbearable. Mentally I was ready to made the commitment to end my own life -> I was so ashamed that my body couldn't heal, always checking with a mirror for hours each day!
I started lurking on this forum and others like it and it caused even more stress because of how much LiS is pushed as the only successful treatment. Therefore I wanted to share my healing!
Here's what I did to heal my fissure:
1. Dilitiazem twice a day, 12h interval.
2. Getting my diet in check, I started eating 80% the exact same food each day. This because I needed to standardize my BM. I ate rice, chicken, broccoli & brussels sprouts for each meal. Drinking atleast 4L of water everyday.
3. Also found what amount of laxative gave me soft, smooth and easy BM. Took this every single day
4. Lubricate before each BM.
5. Anal dilation!!! No doctor ever mentioned this to me. I only learned from it because of the forums. And my god it works! First using fingers and then bought plugs. Two sessions a day, first session was actual stretching. Slow and steady, lubrication and teaching my sphinctermuscle to relax.
The second session was only using my fingers with focus on relaxation and teaching myself not to tense up as something exits the anus.
6. Baths after each BM and before bed.
7. Re-learing how to actually poop. Finding a way to poop in a squat position with minimal time spent on the toilet.
Doing dilation really taught me to relax my sphincter. I could notice myself during the day constantly being tense.
I am certain that I have for several years walked around in life constantly tensing and flexing my sphinctermuscle and that this together with poor diet caused my hemmoroids which eventually lead to my fissure.
After starting dilitiazem and dilation I could immediately notice improvements.
I followed the steps I've given above for 12weeks. I was going in for scheduling botox-injections and to my surprise the surgeon told me I was healed.
I now have painfree BM, I'm still on laxative but a considerable lower dose. I'll probably keep taking laxative for atleast a year.
I want all of you who are struggling to know that I'm in your corner cheering for you! YOU CAN DO IT!