Hi Lecia and Kim
Yeah...Im really frustrated, but I know that it could be worse, so i am still trying to stay on track..I feel guilty sometimes though because I just don't do it sometimess...sometimes that rebellious part of me sort of quietly convinces me that I can get away with it if i take the softeners...but....not so. I know this but for some reason, i manage to convince myself otherwise.
Kim, it hurt when I passed the stool, and there was a little blood on the tissue paper. I guess thats how I know. I also get this pins and needles sensation every once in awhile. I have vacation this week though (thank god) so I will spend a lot of time in the bath tub. Good idea eh?
Whats really crazy is I remember having the spasms from a really early age. While i DONT have them now...not since the surgery...I wish that I had spoken up more as a child. I tried once and the doctor looked at me like I was an alien, so i just shut my mouth then and there. Perhaps it was the way I was trying to describe it.
Anyways....yes....really frustrated....upset....unmotivated....disappointed...etc....but what can I do except try try and try again...and perhaps pray.
So B, C and zinc eh? Well i already take 1000mg capsules of C...and i should get back to my daily vitamin. Is there anything I can take that would help the skin down there be more elastic? Or perhaps increase blood flow to the area?
Thanks a lot for your support guys, it means a lot. I wish I didn't need it, but...i guess this is one of those bumps you were talking about.
kate