I haven't been here in so long and just came back to see how you all were doing... Was so surprised to see this thread and couldn't help but read every page and almost every message written here.. I just want to send my love and I really wish I could say or do something to make you feel better, I'm just at a loss for words! You're the expert here so you know this game 10 times better than I do, which is why you're my role model...
All I really can say is that there's always hope for healing, even when things seem impossible. I'm thankful that my fissure has been healing beautifully, and all I've been using for the past 2 or 3 months is aloe vera gel. It's been helping the skin tags shrink so much and has been helping both fissures, I don't have pain on many days anymore... I never believed it would be possible to be pain-free because my fissure(s) were soo chronic and so painful. There's always a risk for re-injury and it's so likely, so possible, but there's also always the hope of just living normally, or semi normally, and being able to enjoy life

I can't imagine how frustrating it must feel to go through this... My grandmother has been having horrible @rse problems too, just with feeling pressure down there immediately after she eats (every single meal), but not being able to push anything out. There's so much discomfort everyone on this board goes through, & it's so weird how the rest of the world takes healthy pooing for granted.. At least we get to enjoy life's small pleasures and realize how lucky we are to at least see/hear/touch them.. I guess we still have a bed.. a cozy bed.. a cozy family.. loving boardies.. People who really do care, and really do understand..
Sorry for writing such a long essay:p but I just wanted to say that much of my healing is due to your advice.. Don't lose hope, you're our hope
