I think you have a great doctor for starters !
You have a busy future ahead and have suffered for too long, I know that much !
This setback you had, was this when you decreased the nitro ??
Did you do the test with the nitro to see if things felt any different?? Maybe you could stop the nitro now and see how things feel over the next couple of days

It’s only natural to have these doubts and to be scared, i am scared too as i dont really know what they are going to do when i am under ! I just consent to whatever, A risk I am willing to take !

I am thinking of you Jen, I know you have the strength to make the right decision for you and your future

xx