Hi everybody,
I’m so happy to have found this forum and to join that international bum sufferer community. I’ve been dealing with my AF for a long time now, something like 5 years. I was 16 when I first had my AF, after a few episodes of constipation: big hard stools, toilet paper stained with red blood, acute pain…classic AF. But I was young and particularly shy, I couldn’t imagine telling someone the embarrassing situation I was in. As time went on, nothing had improved for I had changed nothing in my diet. Although , most of the time the AF wasn’t that painful, when passing stools it was just stinging with more or less blood on the paper. But sometimes, I had the most horrible BMs, the kind of BM that most of you have already experienced.
I had been living that way for 3 years until I finally decided to go to the gastrointestinal doctor. Keeping the problem to myself was the biggest mistake I’ve ever done in my life. I should have called a doctor from the very start and been rid of this at once. Instead, I’ve let the AFs (actually I have 2, one in each side) grow chronic, now I know it will never heal, these horrible fissures are going to stick with me all my life because I wasn’t able to seek help. Now I have to take 2 sachets of Forlax (that’s the most common laxative we use in France) of 10g each, every evening. I’ve been under that treatment for 1year and a half. It works pretty well, my stools are soft, I don’t bleed anymore but I still have trouble passing stools, even with a healthy and high fiber diet. My sphincter is very tense and I feel like it may retear at any moment. I’m always in fear of having a setback because it always comes back , it’s just a matter of time.
I'm so tired of this...That things are preventing me from making projects and leading the life I want. I’m only 20, medical student, which means stress, on-call duty, lot of work…I have already few time for myself, and I don’t want to cope with that AF thing as well. I’m going to take my 2 sachets of laxative every day for the rest of my life as I’m completely dependent on them. At least it works most of the time. I don’t see other outlet for the moment, surgery is out of the picture, now I wish I could find something natural which could replace the laxative by degrees…Dried prunes are quite efficient and taste pretty good but I guess I would need to eat 30 of them to have the same effect haha…
Kind regards,
Elaine