Hi Suzy, I'm sorry you are deal with this for a long time.
It has been pretty hard 2 months for me. I could even fully enjoy my little one. I'm trying not to be depressed but its hard. One thing really scares me is that what if I never completely recover from it, what if I have deal with it forever.
Why cant they fix it, it's 21st century ... I'm really frustrated. I was depressed until I find this forum. Thanks for all your support
When I have good day I feel like I can get over this then next day I will have completely opposite day and start worrying ... I agree this can put our life on hold. I'm happy that your husband is extremely understanding. My husband understands but he seems does not like to listen about my problem. He is keep telling me be positive. Well at least he dilates my anus Sometimes I wonder how long can he be supportive. I was sick when I met him and till now ;(