I've had an anal fissure since I was 13. I am 20 now. It took me a few years to actually realize it was a fissure that was causing my problems. OK, so my case is probably very abnormal. It's not a normal fissure. I believe I got it when I put a pencil in my butt.. I dont know why I did it, I was curious. As I am a male this is a very embarrassing topic for me. I believe it tore my sphincter pretty severely. I can feel the skin tag down there. So it was not just a large stool or whatever that caused this.
So here are my symptoms: I cannot stay clean down there. I just CANNOT do it. No matter how many times I wipe, there is always more showing up. This causes me to stink, and is the main reason I'm desperate for help. Also, I experienced chronic diarrhea for many years. 75% of my bowel movements were loose, runny stools. This past year it has been better, but not great. Also, I would experience a drop of blood on my toilet paper every once in a while.
This has gone on for long enough. I dont have health insurance, I cant turn to my parents due to embarrassment, I'm really just lost. I dont want to do the safe options, like put creams and stuff on there. I know it will help, but it wont cure it. I just want it to be cured once and for all. Is that even possible? What doctor do I go to? Can I just opt for surgery right away? How much approximately will surgery cost me with no insurance? I have up to $3000 to spend. I'm tired of being the smelly guy. I need help, but it seems almost overwhelming. SEVEN years i've had this. I cant take it anymore. Depression has plagued me for the past 5 years. Lost in Thought, please help.