by Luka » 04 Aug 2013, 18:54
Thank you everyone for your support. I haven't been online much the past day or so because I'm trying my best to recover from this setback. I'm feeling slightly better, so that's something.
I'm going to make an appointment with the CRS my GP originally referred me to back in January. I didn't see him at the time because the wait was over 2 months, so I saw another CRS (younger with less experience). The CRS my doctor recommended is supposedly a nice, understanding guy with years of experience (he's board certified and in his 60s, I believe). If I go the surgery route, I want someone EXTREMELY experienced with it. I wouldn't feel comfortable otherwise. As I said, I have panic disorder (VERY prone to panic attacks) and depression, so I need a doctor that will be understanding, as well as very experienced.
I hope the wait isn't two months like last time. : ( I just want to get this resolved and move on with my life. He is the most experienced doctor at the practice and very respected, so I hope the wait will be worth it. As far as paying for it... I have no clue. It's something I will need to figure out. At least I have some savings.
Again, my problem with surgery is that I'm incredibly afraid it will lead to more pain and pain during bowel movements (which I don't currently have, thank God). I've read the recovery can be excruciating on here and that scares the heck out of me. Some feel immediate relief after surgery, while others are in horrible, debilitating pain for weeks. I don't know how I'd do it. I'd probably want to kill myself. I'm not as brave as many of you on this forum. : ( So, that's what's going through my head right now about all this. It's a very tough decision for me.
January 2013 - Diagnosed with fissure. Eventually turned chronic.
History of IBS and anxiety disorder, along with fear of using bathrooms other than my own caused it.
Tried Diltiazem, but eventually developed a rash.
LIS surgery scheduled August 26th.