O Sadie do not be embarrassed, the fact is more do suffer than they let on !
Is your relationship fairly new ? I can understand your concerns…
Anoheal is what to ask for, if you can get it use it 3 x daily before and after a BM this hard work should pay off for you !
For now Vaseline will help to lube the area before a BM and create a barrier to stop the burning of your open wound,
I would stick with the fybogel or regucol which is similar but with prebitoics, which will keep your tummy nice– Holland and Barret – remember lots of water with these supplements !
Go for some evening primrose too I know most of us girls suffer around that time for me this helped with the time of the month constipation and cramps
This forum is a haven there is so much good advice here i am sure it will help you find your way
Heres a big hug