Danny - Lecia told about all wonted to say , so I would just send you one BIG
and tell you that you have to remember that you healed once and that you will heal again. NOW, with that said - you now just HAVE to make yourself more comfortable - pain can do strange and scary thing to us :( . I went from 136p (I ma 5'7) to 116 p and was looking like a skeleton . I came to size 2 and I cried any time I saw myself in the mirror.
While liquid poop might burn, it does less damage than hard one, so try to find a balance it is HARD, we all had hard time finding what works for us with trail and error and some errors cost us re tears :( and going through agony all over again. Lecias- Kellogs All Bran buds are really miracle in a box. What I did was that I would soak them in milk until they became mushy, than would add fresh fruit to it , like blueberries , or cut-up apricots, or any fruit you like ! If you have it for breakfast - I guaranty you that that poop will come out nice and mushy, but not runny ! I later discovered that eating it before a sandwich made of 2 peaces of whole grain bread and some turkey breast and some veggies inside (tomato, cucumbers, peppers and such and some Mayo or what ever you want as a dressing that is not spicy) would also
help make poop soft and nice natural way. You can eat as much veggies and fruits you like - including smoothies and canned fruit. Also, soups are great , especially been ones. I also found that those "eggs in the carton" that are cholesterol free like Eggo Beaters are much less constipating especially AGAIN if eaten with veggies on top of them and so forth. You have to eat to heal :( - I know it is scary to eat and all that you chew you imagine "going out on opposite side" , but you just have to. Forget other people now - it will just drive you crazy !!!!! You never know what is waiting to jump on them too
. Your primary concern now is to get medical help and as Lecia suggested go to ER - they CAN NOT DENY YOU CARE even if you do not have money or insurance !!!!! That is what poor people have to do in this country - but what can you do ??? Your mental health is also VERY important and make sure it is addressed too. Please get out of your room and watch some funny movies on TV and have nice warm baths to relax your muscle and read some inspirational books - ANYTHING that can take your thoughts off all that pain
. AND NEVER FORGET _ YOU HEALED ONCE AND WILL HEAL AGAIN !!!!!
Best of luck buddy
- please take care and be gentle to yourself - some things just can not be "toughen out" , you need help and a lot of care and don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for it ! You just must be more proactive AND NEVER LOOSE HOPE !!!!